For emotional breakdowns, depression, baking, over-eating, and family; or at least that’s my point of view right now. Next weekend is Christmas, and lately it hasn’t felt like it at all- no decorations, no shopping, not really any baking, and no tree. But I suppose that’s all of the materialistic characteristics of Christmas, so they don’t really matter. Or do they? Being broke for the holidays definitely puts things in perspective, and adds a smidgen of depression to the season. But I should still be thankful for my family, my husband, and my lil’ man, right?- of course I am.
However, I’ve been doing a lot of praying lately, mainly because I have no idea what else to do, but also because I’m tired of being depressed. I know there are families out there that are having a harder time than we are- families that can’t even afford a place to live, they can’t afford groceries, and they can’t afford gifts for one another. But somehow, some still find joy in the Christmas season. So why can’t I? Well, there’s absolutely NOTHING that I can personally do to fix our situation- so I gave it to Him. I will let Him fix it; just please give me my happiness back. Well, I have some of my happiness back- the Christmas tree got decorated (I supervised while sitting in the massage chair), and I’ve decided to unleash my small stash of handmade items as gifts this year. I won’t be able to give to everyone, but I’ll still be able to give. And He’s fixing it….my hubby finishes a job this next week, and will be getting a contract for a large job tomorrow. Thank you Lord!!!
Now if only He can do something about this back pain of mine…
awww it will get better!! way to lean on God. :) Sometime it can take some time, but He will never leave you hanging. He will always pick you up.
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